A Bear in the Woods "ep"

by To Depart

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These are some old jams that were written after some shit times back in 2013. Releasing these songs has finally allowed me to move on to make what I think is better music. I can leave these emotions here with this ep so as to move forward onto brighter things.

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released December 31, 2015

Bastian Kunu - vocals, guitar, bass, drums

Produced by Jack Hubbell

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To Depart Washington, D.C.

To Depart is the antithesis of complacency. A foggy window into the clouded heart and thoughts of musician Bastian Kunu.

Better recognized for his heavy hitting, kit killing work drumming in DC based A MARC Train Home, it's interesting to see the differences of his personal music. You get a chilling sense of how the songs are real, sung from experience, all in an effort to heal mental anguish.
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Track Name: Untitled Emotions
I'm sick and tired of walking on eggshells
While people are considering me
The eggshells that they step on
I'm being pushed aside
Forced into silence
Made to be lonely
Taught to be afraid
Paid to be quiet

And i've learned

That it's not about what I want
It's just about what others want
It's always about the others
It's not about what I want
It's just about what others want
It's always about the others

I guess I'll just sit here
And deal with it
Because you can't
Because you couldn't
I guess i'll remain
A trembling
Weak and
Whipped and
Tired and
Worn out muddy pacifist
All the while

You remain a God

~
Track Name: Isn't Understood
Why won’t you
Look me in the eyes?
Who have you wronged?
Was it worth
All the years
Spent trying
To deny
Me of who I really was
Or your name in a song?

I tried to be
Who I could never become.
For a moment there
I thought I was someone’s son.
Dereliction,
Work of fiction
I could never have guessed
That walls around me
Overbound and see that
I am distressed.


~The feeling of being loved~
Is gone for good
It's gone for good
And the feeling of meaning
Isn’t understood
It’s gone for good
What would I even do
In a life without you

I’d live

What if I’d
Taken the knife and stabbed your heart
With it
Would you feel a thing?
I bet that
you would just
go off and
Run and hide
Just like the coward that you are
You’d probably stab my back.

I tried to be
What I could never become.
For a moment there
I thought I was someone’s son.
This work of fiction,
Dereliction,
I could never have guessed
That walls around me
Overbound and see that
I am distressed.

~The feeling of being loved~
Is gone for good
It's gone for good
And the feeling of meaning
Isn’t understood
It’s gone for good
What would I even do
In a world without you

I’d live
Track Name: Humble Home
You promised you would hold me
You'd hold my hand
You'd hold my head up
And I figured you'd still be my friend
But now I know how much I really meant to you

I don't know what I did to deserve this
I don't know what I can do
To get you back

I don't like this
No I don't
Feel like being on my own
On my own
Nobody to relate to
No one gives a fuck

One life is given and I hope that mine's not blown

I won't lie
No more
No, I won't even try
No more lies

~*~

The day you told me that I should leave our humble home
Is the day I will rue
Until I find another

One day you'll see me living happier
Than I could be with you

And peace and solace
Will be nowhere to be found

I
Have
No
Heart
Left
Anymore
But
I will
Never
Quit
Looking for one

Look through the trees
I
You'll see we have a disease
Have
You must fall to your knees
No
And look up to the skies and pray
Heart
We don't die
Left
He'll have you asking him why
Anymore
As you dig and reap you'll begin to uncover the truth
Of it all
But
With backs against the wall
I will
No Accident At All
It's the inevitable
Never
Now you can go
Outstretched arms towards the sun
Quit
Purge your lips just this once
Looking for one
My dear
Track Name: Foreshadow
I planned a life not to exist
I did it all but for a fix
A mere moment in time betwixt
The emotions of death transcending
A promise to me escaped your lips
As if not to say it at all
But as time goes on it's been seen through
that the egos of many will fall

The consequences, wasted expenses
All in all it was just a big waste of time
I could have been with the one I needed
I thought I needed you but it was only a thought
In my brain I feel dead
I feel like throwing up in bed
From nightmares persistent
The fever consistent

All I wanted from you was you and all I needed to do was be
True to myself and be true to you
I’ve had enough
I’m done with it
From running over
Same old shit
I’m growing weary
Now it's time to sleep

I want you to think about what you did.
I won’t roll over this time and play dead.

I want to change,
My habits and my ways.
But I don’t think that I know how.
Track Name: Get Left
I'm trying to get left but I can't find my footing
No chance in sight that I see
I want to give it my best but easier said than done
I just want to turn away and run

No? You think I shouldn't go?

and I DON'T BELIEVE THAT I CAN
Even though I've done it once
I don't want to fail again
So I have a fail safe plan
To love my fellow man
And do everything I can

~Because I have seen the other side~
Where regret is in the air
Pockets penniless and starved
Exclaiming life's not fair
I want don't want to be a helpless soul

I want to be in control of choices laid in front of me
That are waiting for my choice

You ask me
Time again
To divulge
Master plans
And I tell you
That I can't
To trust me
Understand

But

You persist
Interrogate
My ears bleed
You frustrate
I suffocate
My thoughts are
Tide and tangled
Hopes and dreams
Destroyed and mangled
Please just leave
Go away
Come again
When I see the day
You will rue the day
That my dreams
No longer fabled
Have seen light
Then will I be able

To love you
And myself
Nursed me back
Stable Health
Where I could give
My last breath
Rest in peace
Knowing I finally got left
Track Name: Gluttonous Seeds
I sit alone all by myself
I dream of life or just something else
The world around me and the thoughts in my head
They are not mine
My hands preoccupied with an attempt to pursue time

But as you stir troubled waters in your brain
Giving power to the demon that persists and is unnamed
I've learned of ways to cope and deal
And resist all the world's evil ways

But when it comes down to it

~ I feel lame ~
I feel ashamed
A huge disappointment to myself and I'm the one that I must blame
I feel sick, diseased
With gluttonous seeds
I've got a fire deep inside of me burning bright for few to see
You won't blow it out